just give up

Dear God,
I have passed many realities this week
Before I tell you that stuffs
I really want to say thank you for all of your mercy and graces...

Father,
I know every single person that You've been sent to me is very unique
I really understand that all of those people are sent by You
to build my character,
to support me,
to cheer me up,
to give their shoulder when I must cry out,
but God...
Do you know something about me?
Now, I'm hurt...

Every single day, I tried to defend my believe to my friend
I try to protect them
but God,
I got nothing...
Nothing, but hurt

God, why You sent me a best friend,
but in the end, I must say goodbye
????

I need your answer God...

Please give me an answer,
because I can't understand
I'm too stupid to understand Your way

God, you know what?
I just wanna give up
I just wanna say goodbye
I'm just too tired
It's just enough

God, do you understand me?
Please give me an answer,
because I'm scare
If I will make a wrong decision
God...
I need You right now